I Suffer Daily Because the Medication I Need is Illegal

I have battled with anxiety and depression and even attempted suicide throughout my life. This has made me a guinea pig for all sorts of medications some that have caused severe affects. I have chosen to smoke marijuana instead because it actually helps my problems but I have been arrested constantly for failing drug test for my probation yet I’m required to take medication by probation for my issues. I suffer daily because the medication I actually need is illegal. This isn’t fair to me and others like me.