I became an activist

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I started having severe anxiety and panic attacks when I was 9 years old. I had to quit school when I was 16 because the panic attacks were so bad. I started seeing a shrink at the age of 16 and was put on xanax and a SSRI. Since then I have been in and out of the mental hospitals so many times I cant even count now. I got married when I was 19. I had found out at a early age I could kill the anxiety with alcohol. By the time I was in my 20’s I was a raging alcoholic and was going to jail for being disorderly. Later I was pinned with a felony from one stupid day of drinking just because they were tired of dealing with me. My wife ended up leaving me and I became suicidal like so many times before… I wanted to drink the pain away but I knew I would just end up in prision at some point so I decided to try marijuana… When I started that I quickly learned it helped me more than any SSRI or benzo I had ever tried for depression and anxiety. I realized I could have fun by myself and just enjoy life and being with my kids! It gives me a sense of being at ease.. total peace in my soul. That was back in 2009 and i’ve kept with it. Its my go to medication for depression.. It NEVER fails me. I also ended up with stomach problems and had what was thought to be crohn’s disease.. I was passing blood and it hurt worse than any pain I’ve ever felt. I was told if you eat cannabis it would help with it, so I did and it helped the pain.. Since I started smoking daily it has completely gone away. So I am here today to tell you cannabis has changed my life completely.. I no longer drink either.. Cannabis has saved my LIFE! Now I can spend time with my kids.. not missing Christmas’s because I’m drunk. So please help make this safe medicine, legal. I use it but I am not a criminal! I want to feel safe in my home without the incredible fear of being arrested again. Also my regular doctor knows I use and says if it helps I can keep using it. My shrink and counselor knows I smoke and lets me know its okay to take breaks for myself and smoke. So if my doctors say it’s okay why does my home state say it isn’t? Thank you for taking the time to read my story 🙂